There you were before me
As though no time had passed
I couldn’t look at you like before
All I could feel was regret
I remembered the confusion
The shame and the guilt
The feelings of lack
The heavy weight in my gut
A series of accusations washed over me
As I blamed you for my hurt
I only view you as my other
As I wallowed in my pain
But the time had come for this to end
And the Creator revealed a miracle
She showed me your true self
It was pure and gleaming gold
She told me to make you into a child
She said this is what She sees
Your innocence beamed through the ether
You were an extension of Her
I saw all of your intentions
And your many anxieties
The Creator showed me why this happened
It had a greater purpose
The chasm between us expedited growth
We divided—but it was merely an illusion
Love is always with us
Forever compassionate for the other soul
I shed cleansing tears and freed my heart
I picked you up and held you close to my chest
As we embraced, we were shielded from the past
Gone were the feelings of resentment and fear
I put you down and you grew up again
You showed yourself in shining white
You spun around in circles
Dancing freely in the sand
I grabbed your hands and we spun together
The joy expanded a hundred miles
We may never return to what was before
But love will guide us from now on
It’s been awhile since I’ve posted anything, and it’s amazing to see how far my mindset has changed in a year or so. I barely agree with my past self anymore.
Anyway…I’ve decided I need to use this page more for my experiences and feelings that may be deemed “mystical” (or not–these are my words only). In particular, I’ve gained a lot of spiritual insight while in the dreamstate.
Last night, I encountered what some may call a low vibrational entity, or simply a dark presence. Whenever this happens, I instinctively call for Mother Mary’s assistance. In a brief poem, this was my experience:
Pins and needles instilled a panic in my heart
I felt the vast, void, separation from the light
Inescapable loneliness, breathless fear
Where could I go? I was nothing without You
All of the deceits of this world piled on my soul
The disconnection overcame my sisters
But they didn’t know You as well as I
And they didn’t know that You could free us
If only we freed ourselves
If only we knew that we could
The irksome prattling of the talking heads
And the hailing of lower vibratory frequencies
Repeated the lies to a naive public
What were they hiding from us?
That’s how we got here in the first place
When I met my final threshold
And the hopelessness deemed itself victorious
I remembered who I was
I remembered what the void was
I reintegrated the shadow into my being
I reclaimed my strength for myself
I reclaimed it for my sisters and their liberation
I blessed the separation
I blessed that which tortured me
I remembered that we were One
In the lifting of the veil I felt my freedom
I no longer needed protection
It was protection that supported the illusion
Love was all that could exist
Even in the darkest places
In a realization of self-sovereignty
I cried out to the Divine Mother
I could see her luminous face
She sat atop a musty placard
“Hail Mary, Full of Grace, the Lord is With You…”
Today is a very hard day for a lot of us. It is also an exciting day for some of us. As a fairly progressive millennial, this is an extremely difficult day for nearly anyone in my social circle. So let’s just take this piece by piece.
First of all, a great deal of you voted for who I was told for the past year is the absolute enemy. I was told that “anybody” that supported the new president elect is a racist, sexist, homophobic islamophobic jerk. For a small, dangerous percentage of you, this is absolutely true. My advice to you is to surrender to the Light of God. I realize that much of what you believe begins with fear. But fear is not God’s love. Maybe you do not believe in God, but if you do, know that family values will remain if we go home and spend time with our families, not if we change laws that say two people who are in love can no longer marry. There is no sense in concerning ourselves with what other people’s families look like–it does not effect our own. National security will remain intact if we promote peace and attempt to negotiate with other nations–fearing Muslim countries and Mexican immigrants does not solve any problems we have regarding immigration, or terrorism. We must be rational and reasonable. We must not generalize. Fear achieves nothing. Violence achieves even less. You will continue to live in fear until you surrender your heart to God.
To the rest of the Trump supporters who do not fall into the category above: I’m sure you discerned carefully as to why you voted the way you did. I am sorry if you are experiencing hatred. Please understand that while you may have chosen Trump for economic reasons that have nothing to do with gender, race, sexuality or religion, that the reality is that most members of minority groups are now scared that they are at risk. Please give them the peace of mind that you are on their side. If you voted for Trump for your own religious freedom, please tell a Muslim that they have the right to their own. Be an example. Treat others with love just like you’d like us to do with you. You will put so many people’s hearts at ease.
To everyone else, particularly those who are now in fear: We will get through this. If you are white, stand up against aggression towards Muslims and minorities. Use your privilege for good. Start getting involved in the political process. Help change our government (that goes for everybody else as well).
If you are a woman: You are a PERSON especially loved by God, who is both feminine and masculine. Use the strength of the divine feminine that I know is within you to stand up against sexual violence. If you have been hurt by assault or harassment and you are mourning that the country does not care about you, that is not true. Half of this country did not vote for Trump. And if all else fails, I STAND WITH YOU. We are stronger together.
If you do not have privilege as a minority religion or race and this has been hard for you to read because you are in literal fear for your life, please remember that there are good people out there. There are good people who plan to continue to fight against that which divides us. I support you. Clinton supporters are with you. Sanders supporters are with you. I imagine even obscure third party supporters are with you. You are NOT alone. If you feel unsafe, please let an ally know if there is anything we can do to help you. If you need physical protection or you just need to know that there are privileged people who are on your side, let us know what we can do. If you want us to shut up and check our privilege, let us know. As Americans, WE ARE A COMMUNITY. And we will not leave you behind.
More than anything, I’d like to say this: Life is not over. Evil has not won. Don’t let fear destroy your ability to love and move forward. Don’t be afraid. United we stand, but divided we fall. Forgive those who disagree with you. Forgive those who promote divisiveness. Find strength and peace in the love of God. I know it’s hard to hear, I know you may read this and think, “but she’s a white Christian!” And I get it. But I don’t want you to lose hope. We’ve been through worse than this and we will continue on.
When President Obama was elected, we thought a lot of change would happen quickly. Some republicans were terrified. But the fact is that change happened very slowly, and in some cases not at all. The government works for us. The government shut down before, and it can happen again. We are Trump’s boss. And he’s going to learn what it means to work hard to keep us happy. That is his job. As long as we promote the common good, we will succeed. But as long as we let fear win, we will continue to live in chaos.
We can do this, America. ❤️
Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be courageous; be strong. 1 Cor. 16:13