Deep in the darkness

your heart may lurk

solitary, frozen, fearful

despair feels somehow restorative

—

The fantasies come along

An existence absence of you

The sadness thick; isolation never-ending

Every door on which you knock is closed

—

The intensity of the thoughts thicken

You are but a wretched person

You have solely yourself

Insignificant in the universe

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You begin to question

Why did I come

This could not have been a choice

Anything else would have been better

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The ego moves you slow like molasses

You forget who you are

You slip farther away

You feel comfort in the cavern

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The earth shakes; you have hit the bottom

As your body slams onto the earth

A singular thought arises

I do not want to be with myself any more

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Something curious happens

The thought makes you realize

You are not the sum of your experience

Who is “you”? Who is “yourself”?

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An awareness of distinction

Clears your skies of consciousness

The dark sky altered your perception

But abruptly you have shifted

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Grasping the blackness

Amplifies the beauty of the light

One cannot exist without the other

Harmoniousness becomes you

—

Your radiant glow spreads

To the totality of what your touch

And your dark night of the soul

Brings others into their beauty

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A blessing in disguise

A deliverance from terror

The experience assists you

And millions will learn from you

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